i suppose i should be feeling something

It's been six months, which is surprising to me not that I've not written here for that amount of time, but I just ready my last post and I can't believe that that was six months ago. I think I've figured out what it was about that book that got to me, and it really is the happy-but-not ending - the songs, books, movies (etc.) that stay with me the most and the longest are usually of this type. There is something about them. I can't describe it, but they just get to me. Like the latest Pirates move; too long, rather drawn out, too fantastic, but the ending... I don't know. I'm not sure I entirely liked it, and I don't even mean in my usual manner of such things, but it did get to me. More than I think it got to my friends who likely stopped thinking about the movie the minute we left the theater.

But, that is not the point of this post. The point is that I am feeling the need to express the fact that I am feeling the clock ticking. Or rather, that I should feel it ticking and I don't. With my last close single friend currently doubled up, I am feeling surprisingly lonely. Several friends are also in the process of procreation. It makes me think about how I want to get married and have kids (gone from the "maybe" to "yes" category)...but not now. And I'm at the age where if I want to have children, should do it before long, at least before it's at the point of "medical miracle". And I'd like to be married before then; I can't even imagine raising a child by myself. No idea how other single parents do it.

My computer is about to die; will have to finish later.