do you believe in magic?

I am an optimist. I have to be one. I don't think I could live and not be one. I love fairy tales. I love the phrase "and they lived happily ever after". I believe in magic, and especially unicorns. I like too think that if one truly believes enough, that it is possible to see one. I believe in happy endings, which makes me a horrible novel reader; when things get a little tough, I tend to skip to the end to make sure that it all turns out okay. I wish I could do that in my life. I wish that I could skip to the end and make sure that everything happens as it was supposed to turn out.

My favorite movies are the ones where the guy gets the girl in the end (or vice versa). I recently saw The Prince and Me and the movie ends with the Prince of Denmark, Edvard, telling Paige to do what she wants - go to med school, etc., that he'll wait, that he needs her. The movie ends with them falling happily into each others arms. She doesn't lose her independence, and she gets the guy (a hot prince, no less). The DVD offers an alternate ending as an extra where Paige leaves Denmark and her Prince behind and...that's it. They don't end up together. What the hell? What kind of story is that? I felt cheated after watching that ending. Yes, I know real life is more often that alternate ending than not. That is why they are called fairy tales and not "real life tales". We all live in the real world. I see it everyday on the news, in the papers, on the internet, all around me. So, while I say that I am an optimist, I am also a realist, too. I hope for the best, but expect the worst. That way, all bases are covered. But even having your bases covered doesn't mean that it's easier to deal with when the worst does happen.

Now, of course, when I say that the worst has happened, I am exaggerating. But, I had come to a door in my road of life and behind that door lay either a more defined path or a brick wall. I languished in front of the door for a while, and could have done so longer, afraid of that brick wall that might be hiding behind. Well, I finally opened the door, and what do you know, there was indeed a giant brick wall. So, right now, I hurt. I didn't get my happy ending. Oh, my life's not over that, I know, and I'm not being fatalist, but I've been forced to sever a relationship that's meant so much to me, and now I have to find a way and pick up the pieces and move on. But life goes on, and so do I. And I still have my unicorns.