don't read this if your name starts with a triangle

you will have to excuse me. i am starting to get in stressed-out freak-out mode about my project. it's t-3 wks and i still have no clue as to what i am going to put in my report to my school about what i have spent the last two months doing. here is the description given me by my mentor as to what the master's theses supposedly entails: it "involves such tasks as working on management issues, carrying out scientific or technical investigations, or proposing and carrying out ideas for original research". egads. i am in trouble. basically all i have been doing the last few weeks is to help figure out the deficiencies in the area in which i work. hmmm, maybe that can fall under research if i am clever enough...

i am nervous, especially because it will mean disappointing people - my school, my friends to whom i will present, and worst of all, my coworkers if i do not produce something good.

per normal, i am cranky, hungry, and tired. and i have at least 2 more hours of work to go - 3 if i can handle it. i have loads of time that i need to make up. and loads of work to do.

i am reading a confederacy of dunces by john kennedy toole. cool name. comes from the quote: "when a true genius appears in the world, you may know him by this sign, that the dunces are all in confederacy against him" - jonathan swift, thoughts on various subjects, moral and diverting. it's a pulitzer prize winner, and supposed to be quite hilarious, but still waiting. granted, am only on page 58, but still.